"six horrible months"

hi, it's been a while?

well this is actually down the fact that i've got back in contact with someone i used to go to sixth form with and all of a sudden he's one of my most valuable friends. and, he's the only one that listens to me talk about my ex for hours and hours and doesn't get bored or fed up with it. he's such a saviour.

hence why i haven't needed to blog on here for a while, because i kind of have nothing to say.

but it's been an exceptionally shite week and bless his heart, chats with him just don't cut it this time.




what would have been my 9 month-iversary thing happened on tuesday... that sucked.

but the thing i'm really, really scared of, is march 20th.

last year, on march 20th, was the first time i ever kissed my ex and therefore started "seeing him".
that's a year later. a whole year wanting to be with one person. six beautiful months with him, six horrible months dying without him. i can't believe how quickly it's come around.

but more so, i can't believe he doesn't care/love me anymore. it still hasn't sunk in and i'm starting to think that this is something that will stay with me for my whole life.

if you're reading this, you know who you are. i miss you still and i love you still. so much.