"you too"

okay.

here's where it all starts. this is what's bothering me right now. normally, i'd post a really cryptic yet pointed status on facebook which expresses my feelings. however, last time i did that, it smacked me in the face. so now, i have absolutely no way of talking about how i feel without getting into trouble. except here. no-one knows my real name and no-one will know the people i'm talking about. safe, yes?

"you too"

in any respect, it's pretty blunt isn't it?

"have a lovely time!"
"you too"

it kind of feels like they don't care whether you have a good time, or to be quite frank, they don't want you to have a good time. they just want you to leave.

recently, i had a major breakup with my boyfriend. granted, we were only together for roughly five months, but still i loved him. so when we broke up, it came as a massive shock to me. he treated me like an angel, he told me i was his world, and the way he looked at me was amazing. even when i'd stayed over at his and i looked like absolute shit when i woke up, he'd still tell me i was beautiful.

so he broke up with me. i never thought anything could hurt that much. it honestly felt like one of my arms fell off. i begged him to stay with me, on my hands and knees no less (not my finest hour) and still he said sorry and walked out.

we're back together now. after a couple of weeks, a lot of tantrums, tears, texts and confusion, we are back together. he says he loves me and everything but it's so different now, i don't know what to do.

before, he'd do anything and everything for me. at the drop of a hat. now, he wants to keep his distance from me. he said "i need to miss you to love you". funny, i didn't realise love was conditional. it's awful, he feels sick when he's with me, feels sick when he's not with me, and now i feel sick without him too. it's so messed up.

has anyone ever been through this? because i'm not sure i can handle it.

me: i love you so much.
boyfriend: you too.

dude. not cool.